I frequently feel like Im drowning in motherhood. Like Im completely screwing up my kids on a daily basis. Some days I feel so empty and drained. But then it happens... those Kairos moments you live for, sneak up on me & fill me back up again. (If youre unaware of Kairos moments read the link above from Momastery.com)
Thursday night my 9 year old got to pitch for the first time in a game. My heart started pounding & I had to pee! LOL Not that I dont want my children to reach for the stars but Im not the push em to the top mom. I like to see them be great. I love the twinkle in their eye when they feel that "oh yea Im a bad ass" feeling. But my heart breaks for them when they dont reach their goal. So go be a bad ass in center field not a key position. ....that stresses me out! But of course he was confident and knew better than me. He took the mound with the twinkle already in his eye. Didnt matter if he sucked he was pitching. He was a pitcher. If anyone ever asks again he can add pitcher to the list. Of course he didnt suck he was amazing and I cried the whole time. So proud. 15 pitches, 6 strikes and 9 balls. 3 batters 2 strikes and 1 walk. Ahhh Kairos....
Then at dinner the other night at one of our favorite restaurants, numerous people stopped to compliment us on the boys. Rave reviews on my well behaved kiddos. Ahhhh Kairos. No one would ever know they each get spanked or sit in timeout at least 2x a day!! LOL One lady stops by our table, struggling to hold her kicking screaming two year old who has run off again away from her....Oh you are so lucky they are being good. LUCKY?!?!? Ted says dont jinx us and rolls his eyes at me. I giggle and then dare to say it...We dont give them a choice. Yea I said it. You dont want them to run around and scream at the table....Dont let them. But thats a whole different post for another day. Today is Kairos. Now I have to go listen to my baby chicken sing you are my sunshine ;)
